Sleeping cats and what-now from my instagram
Although inspiration doesn't come quickly, I've been going through my sketches and I have a few ideas. But nothing that feels like "Yes! This is perfect and must be drawn now!". And that's where the trouble starts I guess, me looking for something perfect. Also I think that I'm embarrassed that I'm tired after work, that I might not be up to creating more. It's a little arrogant in a way, because I know that most people are tired after work and can't be supercreative, yet I insist on wanting to be a little better and not feel like that. I read that perfectionist have a fear of becoming like everyone else. Although this is true, I wonder if not everyone, even the ones who aren't perfectionists, have a fear of becoming like everyone else? What do you think?
Sure you want to fit in the group and be accepted - but we also want to be a little extra special. Not special in the way that "oh darling, everyone's special". Not everyone-special, but special-special.
Hmm... the thirst of creativity - wanting to be great.
I would rather not confess this, because I really want to urge all my readers not to strive for perfectionism - to enjoy a cosy open fire more than fame. But I do have a need for creating things that I feel are better and grander than what I've done before. And sometimes this more-and-better feeling tastes really sour. I constantly tell me friends that I dislike when people respond "I can't wait until I see more" when I show them new work. Although this is a kind comment it makes the current work we're looking at unintresting. We're not focusing on whats created but of what could be created. During my school years I was told that I should always strive for more, never settle for what was achieved. Does any of you have this statement ringing in your head?
I would love to have a discussion about this, because I know many of you are creative and have the same thoughts :)