Lollo looks so proud and arrogant in this photo. Not like today when he simply looked confused :)
I thought I'd update my status, I feel I write so little of my life on the blog that it was time to make up for it. I personally don't like when personal blogs somehow stop being personal.
I'll start at the beginning of the year. In february I went to Lofoten to teach, as I have the past years, and in march I began to work as a graphic designer at an ad agency. At first the job was really fun. It was my first real employment ever so I was very new to the environment. I had been unemployed for 8 months before that (after graduating university).
During the summer me and Robert made a roadtrip to Norway and later I went to visit my sister in Italy (I still haven't showed pictures from that, but I will :). After the vacation the job situation changed. I was involved in a really stressful project that left me with a strong migraine (one afternoon I couldn't walk straight, couldn't talk right, was numb in the left part of my body and had blurry eyesight). It wasn't a big deal in reality, I just had never experienced a strong migraine before, but it left me a little worried - that a working environment could effect your body that much (especially since an ambulance came to get me because they thought I was having a stroke).
Well, the migraine hasn't come back after that so all is well. But yes, after summer work wasn't as much fun and I could feel that we were loosing clients. In the end of september this was confirmed and we were told that 7 people had to leave the office. I was the newbie so of course I had to go. During my last month I looked for work almost every day and our creative director was very kind and did his best to recommend me to other places. Luckily I was offered a new spot at a smaller agency a few days ago. I start next week so this week I am free to do what I please.
It feels good to continue to a new place. I don't think that the agency I left was bad, but the economical situation effected the mood a lot and made it a difficult environment to be in. I know many people have experienced this in a working place, so I'm sure some of you know the feeling.
People ask me what my current personal art projects are... but I haven't got any yet. I want to force myself... and also I don't. Maybe I've been looking to much at other peoples work - and sometimes I just get the feeling that I don't know what I can contribute with anymore. I feel like everything's been done and that we're all just copying each other nowadays. Before ideas for illustrations and photographs used to pop up in my head, just like that, but now it's been blank for a while. If you have any words of wisdom concerning this creative stillness, please feel free to share :)
For an artist it's completely terrifying when the creative spark is gone. Because the creativity is so much in your personality.